This stupid medication, I am feeling a lot less creative on them. I used to enjoy writing and doing photography but now I just never think of anything to do, the motivation is gone.
I’ve turned into a media hermit, just watching shows and movies and reading most of the time.
I wonder if other people with schizophrenia feel like this on their meds, the paranoia helped bring a sense of importance to my work and so the show had to go on.
Now I am just critical of my works, they don’t bring me as much joy as they did when I was skipping pills.
I want my life to have meaning and I am finding less of it as time goes on.
I think religion is a sign that there is mass psychosis rampant in the populace, their insane minds giving meaning to their lives as they toil endlessly for gods that do not show themselves or exist at all.
The world wouldn’t work if we were all treated for psychosis though. Humanity would sleep it’s existence away like me.